Been pondering awhile

Tonight.. midnight.. 3.36am.. insomnia night.. Still able to get online.. because i have something to ponder..really! just dont understand why..so i keep wondering.. Somehow feel like confront to him, sometimes feel like useless tho.. so.. back to the plan.. keep it in my heart.. thought i have wrote down many.. but still dont have the chance to tell.. but.. its bit ridiculous.. when we seeing each other everyday, whats the matter? do i need to send a letter ? a letter that might be a laughter of us or can be a serious matter to us.. Arghhh... just so pissed.. but i hate my weakness > easily to be forgiven! Therefore.. i dont know what to do.. so, im still keeping my eyes open.. and the lights is still on.. feeling cold.. oh.. btw ,i read thru an email, friends, pls dont ON ur lights while u 're sleeping, its really not good for health.. it can cause cancer > Leukemia !! oh man.. this is serious! even to kids too! So, pls change ur lifestyle before its too late.. just a concern to you.. btw for those who fear in the dark.. u can actually feel sleepy only u off it.. so that u wont stay in the dark too long..lolz.. anyway.. im thinkin of getting a hot hot hot drinks.. ermm.. hot milo? oh ya, i just bought hot chocolate =p wink* but too bad.. im not at home yet........... still got work to do.. and.. doesnt seems to work out tho..so.. i gave up now.. and.. i felt hungry already.. i always love supper..and i know its unhealthy... hehe but.. sometimes cant help it.. but already much under control.. all those are just light food, junkiess only.. so i can still eat and sleep... lolz