geraldine rest in peace

Recently i knew my friend, she having a cancer- leukimia. which is still on the early stage..im so suprised that i could met her in hospital, she looked sad and asked me to pray for her.. she told me she will be fine will be recover soon! i was shocked, but i promised her im sure will pray hard for her, for her fast recovery.. her mom looked seriously worried n unconcious.. sigh.. After that day, i cant visit her..becos she is sensitive yet she under some treatments..no one cant able to visit her since she hospitalised..i was sad because we both did said wana meet up for shopping, but i cant believe this thing can happened to her..i neva imagine that my friend will had cancer..i started to worry about life.. about life n death.. when we say about the philosophy of life- death- sick- old..all these we knew, but when it really happened to us we will always cant accept..im pity her.. she is a great talented journalist, working in astro.. everyone loves her, smart, pretty n friendly.. she had a bf too.. her life was so messed.. her parents divorced, now her mom was so lonely.. i cant imagine, what if she really leave us.. how her mom can accept this truth.. After a few months, i received some sms about her condition, she started wheeled in ICU, from the news heard thather condition turns critically.. i was stoned..and i had a bad dream about her.. i dream that she came to my houseand talk to me, but she cover up her face but i heard what she said to me.. she said she is fine, she wana come to my house for some visit..and i replied her.. then this dream was stopped.. so i told this to my mom too..then i started to pray lots for her fast recovery..i really hope to see her again!Till last 2weeks ago.. early morning i received a msg..said that she was in critical situation..i was so down while im working..i did prayed in my heart..hope that she will be fine..i told myself, if anything happened to her, this is fated.. she was so suffered..she gave up becos she cant stand the pain anymore.. why dont we just let her go..peacefully?..i hold my tears back... this is what i told myself not to be disappointed..but..i had another msg after 1 hour later..Its a disappointed msg..it makes me believe that she really gone..she really passed away peacefully..i knew im gonna cry..buti cant cry in the office..and i was so freaking pissed..i told myself i want to attend her funeral..to see her at least.. but i work ot.. i did went to the place, but it closed!i was so pissed off..then the nextday i told myself i must attend to her funeral.. then at last.. i managed to meet her for the last day last chance.. the whole enviroment was so scary, scary becos no one there, cos the ceremony is ended..But i still walk in pray for her, i chanted for her, i talked to her too..and i cried..becos ..i miss her..then..i walk near to her..i saw her..her face..was..diff.. doesnt look like her.. i knew, i knew its becos of the side effect.. i was scared.. i really admit that i scared.. cos she had no hair, her face white, her eyes big(close)..the whole thing was not like wat i thought b4.. i cant imagine thats her.. .. well, after that 3 sec.. i just walked away..this is the end of her life..after that night, i keep talked abt her.. i keep thinking abt it..i just still cant accept too..but..now im ok.. is just that miss her when thinking about those precious moments tht we spend lasttime.. i knew her since1998 commentwealth games..we are so active and fun.. now..time flies..i lost her..but pretty sure she in peace n will be reborn in a good newlife..RIP